Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest unusual treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Joshua Nunez
Joshua Nunez

A journalist and tech enthusiast with a background in international relations, focusing on digital transformation and societal impacts.